I learn, but do not retain what I learn because I fail to apply this new-found wisdom. I'm distracted by life's busyness and the nothingness that wastes so much of my time. I have a hunger to learn more about doctrine and God's ways, but little time to study. I must be content in studying bits here and there and purposely seeking to understand God's ways and attributes through my daily walk with Him: in nature, in the godly music playing in the background, in my relationships, in the mundane circumstances, and in the answered prayers.
Today I had a chance to read a few pages from Proclaiming a Cross-Centered Theology:
You are what you believe. If your life does not adorn your biblical doctrine, it suggests not that the Bible's doctrine is untrue but that at some profound level, that truth has not taken hold of you yet. It ought to be our aim to out-live, out-rejoice, and out-die the critics of theology and doctrine - to adorn our doctrine with our lives. -J. Ligon Duncan III