If

It's difficult for me to sit down and read a book.  I care for a four-month old several times a week and watch Abby as well.  I've been tucking the book If into my diaper bag so that I can grab it and read a few lines between naps and feedings.  It's a small book that holds powerful words about Calvary love by Amy Carmichael. 

Here is a portion that spoke to me today:

If I cannot catch "the sound of noise of rain" long before the rain falls,

and, going to some hilltop of the spirit, as near to my God as I can,

have not faith to wait there with my face between my knees,

though six times or sixty times I am told "there is nothing,"

till at last "there arises a little cloud out of the sea,"

then I know nothing of Calvary love.

 Right now I'm trusting that the rain will soon be falling.